Sunday, April 7, 2013

From Lizzie to Jane

    No doubt all the Austenites have been keeping up with The Lizzie Bennet Diaries and all the fun and awesomeness that came with that bit of creativity. It was a great new platform with which to tell a story that's already been told a thousand times it seems. And when it ended I felt a bit like a an old soccer ball - a bit deflated, without purpose, and weirdly . . . abandoned. (Issues. I've got 'em.) 

   But! Fear no more! Purpose has re-entered my life once again. In the form of.... The Autobiography of Jane Eyre! 



Mr. Collins, he feels me. (Um...)

  Two videos have been released so far. This group is in no way related to the guys who were involved in the LBD, though it's meant to be in the same universe and Jane talks about how Lizzie was her inspiration for starting a vlog. (Is it weird that a little thrill of delight shot through me while writing that?) 

  Only two episodes so far, but what they have is great and I'm already so excited. I was a little tentative about watching it, but I can see how the Jane of the novel has been translated well into the twenty-first century. What I especially loved about the LBD was the way they wrote in the most significant and recognisable lines from the novel, something which left me very excited and gleeful and fangirling over the writers. And it seems I can expect the same with Jane's videos as well. 

  Not only that but the quiet, observant and expectant atmosphere of the beginning of the novel is captured very well in the first video. It's a sort of trailer. I'm kind of in love, I think. It's Jane. And she's in our world! Even more real than she was in my imagination. Talking about the same books and hobbies as us. Here, watch and be excited:




I can't wait for the rest. 

   Sincerely,
     Lady Disdain 

Friday, March 29, 2013

"Down in the boneyard ten feet deep!"

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"Merricat, said Connie, would you like a 
    cup of tea?
Oh no, said Merricat, you'll poison me. 
Merricat, said Connie, would you like to
   go to sleep? 
Down in the boneyard ten feet deep!"  


   My sister's eyes bulged when I read that section aloud to her. And eye-bulging was pretty much my primary state of being as well while reading Shirley Jackson's We Have Always Lived in the Castle. Mental eye-bulging, at least. There was horrified eye-bulging, amused eye-bulging, and also wow-Shirley-Jackson-is-totally-my-kind-of-writer eye-bulging. 

   Because Shirley Jackson is totally my kind of writer. She achieves horror without being dramatic, unease without being disgusting, and humor without seeming like she's overreaching. Basically, she struck the perfect Gothic chord with me. 

   There are only a few major players in this novel. First, there's Merricat. Or Mary Katherine Blackwood as she is more formally known. She's quite placid, reclusive and dreams of living on the moon. She is someone whom you start rooting for from the start, but then begin to question as you move through the story. In other words, she's the best kind of protagonist:

   "My name is Mary Katherine Blackwood. I am eighteen years old, and I live with my sister Constance. I have often thought that with any luck at all I could have been born a werewolf, because the two middle fingers on both my hands are the same length, but I have had to be content with what I had."    

   And then there's Merricat's older sister, Constance. As you can guess from that little rhyme up above, hers isn't exactly the squeakiest of clean relationships. In fact, she has been acquitted of murdering the majority of the Blackwood family, whose undoing was arsenic in the sugar. 

   Constance and Merricat both live with their Uncle Julian, the only family member to have survived that tragic day (aside from Merricat, who was lucky enough to escape as she'd been sent up to bed without her dinner). Uncle Julian, besides possessing a few loose screws, is also trying to document every single detail of that fateful night.

    "You will see at once how the dinner revolves around my niece. It was early summer, her garden was doing well - the weather was lovely that year, I recall; we have not seen such another summer since, or perhaps I am only getting older. We relied upon Constance for various small delicacies which only she could provide; I am of course not referring to arsenic."

   Despite his loose screws, Uncle Julian does utter some of the funnier lines in the novel, and does it with such dryness and panache that I couldn't help but chuckle several times.  I'm never sure if he did it on purpose, though I suppose that itself was part of the fun.

  Unsurprisingly the three remaining Blackwoods have chosen to cocoon themselves in their manor, and isolated themselves from the rest of the village (aside from the weekly trips that Merricat has to make for groceries). There is absolutely no love lost between the Blackwood family and the conservative, narrow-minded village-folk. They foster a flimsy veneer of smarmy 'respect' while their real contempt manifests itself in hateful rhymes as concocted by their children. The book opens with Merricat's walk into the village, and the hate and pain she feels is so palpable that I inevitably started to feel the same way, too.

   "I always thought about rot when I came toward the row of stores; I thought about burning black painful rot that ate away from inside, hurting dreadfully. I wished it on the village. . . . .I thought of them rotting away and curling in pain and crying out loud; I wanted them doubled up and crying on the ground in front of me." 

   Jackson pretty much has the reader by the string, because for much of the novel you start to realize that there is absolutely no one you can trust for a reliable narrative. Things become more complicated when Cousin Charles enters the picture, all benevolent and intent on repairing old family feuds, while doing a pathetic job of masking his drooling reverence for their family fortune. He and Merricat do not get along - Charles is convinced that they should no longer be locking themselves away, while Merricat is determined more than ever that she, Constance and Uncle Julian will end up living on the moon. 

   As I said, the cast isn't huge, and plot isn't a complicated one. Nevertheless, Jackson manages to infuse the story with enough tension that you can feel the shift in power dynamics within the small number of players. Once Charles entered the scene, I knew I didn't want him to win, but I didn't know by then if I wanted Merricat to win either. Or Constance. Or Uncle Julian. 

   The writing is lucid, but at times Jackson describes the most surreal of moments that it's quite disorientating. In a good way, though. 

   "We eat the year away. We eat the spring and the summer and the fall. We wait for something to grow and then we eat it."

   I loved her writing! I LOVE her writing. I am in love with Shirley Jackson's writing. I want to roll around in it. It's perfect. While you're reading it, you don't really thing about it. It flows so well - the word 'seamless' seems to have been invented for Jackson. She is the mistress of seamlessness! I am on a bit of a Jackson high (as you may, or may not be able to tell.) Her writing is very simply at first glance, but there is nothing simple about that perfect blend of normality and surrealism, the combination of reason and madness that permeates the most of this book. 

   "On Sunday mornings I examined my safeguards, the box of silver dollars I had buried by the creek, and the doll buried in the long field, and the book nailed to the tree in the pine woods; so long as they were where I had put them nothing could get in to harm us. . . . All our land was enriched with my treasures buried in it, thickly inhabited just below the surface with my marbles and my teeth and my coloured stones, all perhaps turned to jewels by now, held together under the ground in a powerful taut web which never loosened, but held fast to guard us."

   Once I'd completed the novel, I felt as if I had to reread it. One reading simply didn't seem enough. No doubt that a second, third or even fourth reading will leave me dredging up some new detail from this particular work of Jackson. And to be completely honest, I look forward to it. 

   Sincerely, 
     Lady Disdain

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Women of the Future

[May 1908]

   "I feel that I do now realise, dimly, what women in the future will be capable of. They truly as yet have never had their chance. Talk of our enlightened days and our emancipated country - pure nonsense! We are firmly held with the self-fashioned chains of slavery. Yes, now I feel that they are self-fashioned, and must be self-removed. 

 . . .Independence, resolve, firm purpose, and the gift of discrimination, mental clearness - here are the inevitable. Again, Will - the realisation that Art is absolutely self-development. The knowledge that genius is dormant in every soul - that that very individuality which is at the root of our being is what matters so poignantly. 

   Here then is a little summary of what I need - power, wealth and freedom. It is the hopelessly insipid doctrine that love is the only thing in the world, taught, hammered into women, from generation to generation, which hampers us so cruelly. We must get rid of that bogey - and then, then comes the opportunity of happiness and freedom." 

- Katherine Mansfield: Letters and Journals

  I feel as if I've been given the best pep talk in - well, a very long time. How is it that this writer who lived over a hundred years ago is able to fire up my blood? For some bizarre reason, I feel the need to make her proud. To make the most of what I have, to somehow compensate for what she didn't. To live up to her legacy of becoming whole, becoming strong, and most of all, to be free through art. 

   Sincerely, 
     Lady Disdain 

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Impressions, depressions and breaking


   I sometimes find I am broken in places I didn't know about. Skin peeling off, or flesh turning purple, and I wonder 'how did that happen'? What casual grazing tore at my skin? What thoughtless bump is leaving its mark? 

   It seems humans are so impressionable. 

   It reminds of me of this line from "Atonement" when Briorny, I think, realizes how easily breakable humans are. We think we are so invincible, racing through each day like Superman but without the kryptonite, when in fact we can tear, unravel, come undone so easily and quickly. And often do. 

   When I was in primary school, I remember one of my teachers telling us how to hold a pen propery. She showed us a depression on the side of her middle finger - the result of gripping a pen too tightly for years and years. I sometimes watch my fingers now, where the pen has been squeezing against it, and when I put the pen down the skin rises slowly back into place. But maybe it's slower every time, until the final time when it won't rise at all. Until all it can do is be pressed down and be made to stay flat. Stay deformed. 

   Despite our pretense at invincibility we are frighteningly malleable, impressionable, and breakable. 

   It terrifies me a little, to be honest. Here's something even more terrifying, if it's true: apparently, if we were to bite off our own fingers it would be no more difficult than biting off a chunk of a carrot. But our brains are wired in such a way that it seems hugely impossible. When I heard that I placed my finger in my mouth and thought "Surely not? Surely it couldn't be so easy." But it is. And we only fool ourselves into thinking that it isn't. 

   Sincerely,
      Lady Disdain 

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Wit (2001)

   It seems lately that I'm gravitating towards films that tend to leave me feeling like a bit of stray, limp pasta that never quite survives the draining and ends up on the edge of the sink hole. Not a very pretty picture, is it? But then, Wit isn't a pretty film. It is gritty. And unashamed. And it throws light on all the ugliness that gets shoved under the rug. It will leave you squirming in discomfort, pity, heartbreak, and maybe a little guilt.

   Wit stars the splendid Emma Thompson as Vivian Bearing, a university lecturer who becomes diagnosed with terminal cancer. Following that, the film simply documents her reactions, her revelations, and her reassessment of herself and her past. 

   "It appears to be a matter, as the saying goes, of life and death. I know all about life and death. I am, after all, a professor of 17th century poetry, specializing in the Holy Sonnets of John Donne."

   The film jumps back and forth, between the past and the present; between the younger, more vulnerable Vivian who clings to words as a means of protection and understanding the world without interacting with it, and the older Professor Bearing who either whips out words like weapons, intending to vanquish with a single, sharp blow or draws dry circles of wit around unsuspecting victims. 

   Despite the fact that this film deals with such a sombre subject as cancer, it doesn't hold back on the humour. Or maybe humor's the best (only?) way to treat such subjects as these. I guess many people wouldn't be interested in watching an hour and a half of  footage of a prickly lecturer feeling sorry for herself if she wasn't also laughing at herself while she's at it. While Professor Bearing doesn't necessarily laugh at herself she is continually finding humor at the situation she's in. And then she'll look directly at you with that look of complete deadpan disdain. Emma Watson is pitch perfect in delivering the wit and humor.

   "I have been asked 'How are you feeling today?' while I was throwing up into a plastic washbasin. I have been asked as I was emerging from a four hour operation with a tube in every orifice, 'How are you feeling today?'. I'm waiting for the moment when someone asks me this question and I am dead. I'm a little sorry I'll miss that." 

   But soon Vivian comes to realize that wit is not enough. She starts to yearn for warmth and friendship. For the human contact that she has spurned for so many years. As someone who is undertaking a new cancer treatment she is nothing but a means of achieving results for the doctors. And it's a little heartbreaking to see her struggle inside the shell that she's created for herself. 

   Ultimately though, the film becomes a study in looking beyond the screens we all prop up around ourselves. In finding the humanity that exists not only in others, but in ourselves. 

  I shall leave you with my favorite lines from the film, which are uttered by Vivian's own lecturer, played by Eileen Atkins, and which seem to lay out the purpose of the whole film. They will punch you in the gut with how profound they are. 

   "The sonnet beings with a valiant struggle with death calling on all the forces of intellect and drama to vanquish the enemy. It is ultimately about the seemingly insuperable barriers separating life, death and eternal life. 

   In the edition you chose, this profoundly simple meaning is sacrificed to hysterical punctuation. And Death, Capital D, shall be no more, semi-colon. Death, Capital D comma, thou shalt die, exclamation mark!  If you go in for this sort of thing I suggest you take up Shakespeare. 

  Gardner's edition of the Holy Sonnets returns to the Westmoreland manuscript of 1610, not for sentimental reasons I assure you, but because Helen Gardner is a scholar. 


  It reads, 'And death shall be no more, comma, death, thou shalt die.' Nothing but a breath, a comma separates life from life everlasting. 


  Very simple, really. With the original punctuation restored Death is no longer something to act out on a stage with exclamation marks. It is a comma. A pause. 


  In this way, the uncompromising way one learns something from the poem, wouldn't you say? Life, death, soul, God, past present. Not insuperable barriers. Not semi-colons. Just a comma."



   Sincerely,
     Lady Disdain

 

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